LA!

i want to be back soooo much!! i miss waking up in bed with liss and having lucky charms and oreos for breakfast :) i miss wez getting annoyed at us for always being late! i miss singing really loud to the ipod on the bus! i miss having completely packed days and always having things to do! i miss having cheeseburger and chips for every meal! i miss the abercrombie and fitch smell! i miss my smile hurting from people taking so many photos! i miss mine and liss's personal jokes! i miss celeb spotting/hunting 24/7! i miss standing out for having english accents! i miss sitting with freddie frm skins on the plane and him being a complete babe! i miss laughing so much my stomach hurt every day!! i miss dawson being cute and mothering me! and most of all i miss everyone who was there! like 75% of the people i had never seen before in my life and wouldnt even think about socialising with them if i did!! but i was so wrong and have learnt not to be so small minded about who i will get along with!! they are the lovliest people ever and i was apsalutley guttedddd when we were on the plane home, becuase i knew it was the last time we would be all together :( best week of my entire life! and i know ive probaly said this about a million times, but it really was! <33333 xoxoxxx

p.s

first session with my personal trainer tommorow - MORE money being spent boo!!
but how cosmopolitan ;) x

money issues!

today has been S T R E S S F U L! its my mums birthday, and i bought her loads of lovely presentss so that part was good, went out for a meal with the family to this GORGEOUS indian which was ever so fancy and has palm trees and massive water features inside and is just amazing! i also bought a CAR!! (aaaahhh i knowwW!!! :D ) but when i told the rents they completely kicked off and its so stressful and i wish i didnt buy it now!! :'( even though if i waited for them to help me get one i would still be waiting on my birthday next may for fucks sake! it was £1550 which is quite cheap! = peugeout 206 in silver its a beauutttt! :D hopefully going to pick it up tommorrowww or sometime this week! its gonna be SO strange not having money!! cos for the past few months iv had at LEAST a grand in the bank and now suddenly ill have nothing!! buuuuuut i spose when i pass my driving test (which will hopefully be v.v.v.v.v.v soon!) ill be able to do taxis for my friendss in townn, and for people needing to go get id and things like thattt which wil earn me a little bit of extra, plus i can do loadsss of overtime at work cos i wont have to bus it/wait for my parents to take me there and pick me up etc so it will be much better :)
im just so nervous to go pick it up tommoroww!!
keep you updated! ;)
ciao xoxoxoxoxox

SO pissed off!

sarahs 18th last night, was really good! macdonalds catered it! but i resisted, ;) i may as well have stuffed myself with burgers and chips though, iv got SO fat today!! diet and personal trainer is DEFSSSSS in order!! also last night mikey and lucy were all over each other - i actually died a little bit inside!! hes only ever like that when hes drunk its so annoying!! well not annoying to be like that when hes sober with HER though!! shes a twat!! haha. DRIVING TEST TOMMOROW. just had a massssssoffff argument with my mum about her taking me for a practice now, shes such a bitch i wish i could be adopted for a few weeks - life sucks right now!!
im FAT.
peace x

thursday night,

..and i am NOT dancing my little butt off in town!! spent all night re-doing my CV, im thinking of quitting outfit for real now because i am so sick and tired of picking up clothes off the floor all day and spacing out coathangers!!! its a joke. iv applied for some temp jobs so im hoping for good news!! :) ill be sad to leave everyone though, but its not like i cant go in and see them all the time!! :D especially cos ill be driving soon, 21st september!! ;D AND im DEFINATLY starting pole dancing on the 22nd!! all paid for, im just nervous to who else is going to be there!! its at squires - my new faveourite place!! haha. i got the 18th parties wrong, one of them is tommorow night!! tommorow is gonna be a longgggg day!! college till 4, then driving lessons till 5, then work till 9.30, then deborahs 18th!! i need a way to get some vodkaaaa! hahaha, might send kirsty wood a cheeky text :) shes a babe! oh, another good thing, iv found a photographer who wants to take some glamour shots of me!! :D im askgin him to do it when iv gotten abit more in shape which should be begginning of october!! :D then miss teen british isles pageant on october 11th!! then hayley sueys and zoeys 18ths are in october oh and hollie wilkinsons ann summers party!!

I LOVE MY LIFE!!

ciao bitches

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

september!!

This month is going to be SUCH a good month!! so many exciting things lined up!
im back at college, second year! ;) it was the first full day back today and the little first years are annoying me already!! hahah, they seem so young! But i can act like queen bee now cos im in my last year ;) hahahahaa! next wek i have 3 18ths in a row!! goodbye liver!! thursday its joe woods, pub golf!! i am just excited to dress up as a golfer! ;) i am going to fail miserably at actually playing pub golf though!! i cant even down a shot never mind a pint! hahaha, then friday night its deborahs 18th, i might not even drink that night cos i probaly will still be hungover from joes! also its only at her house, and her friends are kinda geeky/not hot so i wont have to make much effort, even though i will probaly look even better than deborah anyway!! hahahha, okkkkk not too big headed or anything!! ;) then on saturday night its sarah heaps's 18th, SO many people are going and camping out in her massive field!! mikeys going so hopefully i can share his tent ;) i think its gonna be make or break with mikey cos im just going to give up with boys!! id rather go back to playing them and not actually getting serious with anyone! i prefer it that way anyway, mikey just turned it all upside down cos hes SUCH a babe!! haha, then i have my driving test on the 21st!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh! i had a mock driving test the other dat and i got 7 majors : so its not looking too good!! actually so desperate to be driving though!! even though i cant even afford a car atm but im hoping mummy will help me out! ;) then on the 22nd im FINALLY starting pole dancing!! :D actually sooooooo excitedd!! it will help me with my glamour career i think, cos its sexy and it will help keep me in shape!! speaking of keeping in shape i need to get my ass to the gym!! SOOOO unmotivated atm!! but i have miss teen british isles final in october and i haveeee to have a good body!! i dont wanna be the chubby one or anything like that i would die!! work soon booooooo!!
lots of loveee xoxoxoxoxxoxooxx

WHY am i awake?!

okay, its 5.14am. and i am currently on my laptop : seriouslyyyy havent been able to sleep these last couple of nights, its horrible! ESPECIALLLY when all my friends are out tonight as its a bank holiday, but i have to workk 11-5.30 tommorow which i MAJORLY cannot be bothered with. i actually hate my job! a year ago whenn i first started i thought it was gonna be the best thing ever working in retail, but now i am so sick and tired of picking clothes off the floor and spacing out coathangers! its doesnt exactly help that its about 200 degrees aswell!!
on the plus side, i went to manchester today with livvie and SERIOULSYYY dented my bank balance!! : felt good though, i came back with some b-e-auuuutiful items!! just in time to start college again on wednesday - secretly excited!!

rightt i think its time to try and get back to sleep!
goodnight world!! or should i say, good morning :
xoxoxoxoxoxo